So i have just had my hour long phone call with the mother. I know its only been a few weeks but i feel like im missing out on so much. Danny ( my baby brother ) is walking everywhere, & almost running. when i left he had only just started to find his feet. Ben ( my younger brother ) is going on his first ever holiday abroad with school very soon & i wont be able to say goodbye. I could tell that my mum is very tired & stressed, but as always she trys to hide it. I feel so guilty not being there to help. & to top it all off, i wont be there to see her on mothers day!!! which breaks my heart. I usually buy all of the kids things. Lets say shes a very spoilt women every year! :) Altho, my nan is coming up to manchester for a friends funeral this week so i will be sending money back for Ben to get a few bits, & money so my nan can get my mum some flowers from me & Roxie on the day, :) the thought of not being there that day almost brings me to tears. I need a hug from my mum, one from Ben & a big sloppy kiss from Danny. I need to go home!!